I have some exciting news for you guys, I’ve decided to take a different approach with my blog! What is different about a blog altogether, is that yes, it is professional, and it’s often viewed as a brand and a business, but I believe it should also be very personal. I want to produce strong content and put my heart and soul into the work, but I want it to be genuine and true to who I am. I want to not only be honest with myself but everyone who follows me as well. I don’t want to have to censor my thoughts in order to get people’s approval.
As a professional people pleaser telling someone the truth when it may initially hurt them is always something I’ve struggled with. Whether it’s something as small as how a pair of jeans look on them or something bigger like you not approving of their relationship or how they are living two different lives. Everyone knows it’s easier to pretend like it’s all okay and mind your own business, but as a Christian and foremost a loving friend, I believe you should tell your friend the truth if it’s beneficial in the long run.
Before 2016 even started, I knew it was going to be a heck of a year. I knew I had more life changes coming this year than I’ve had in my whole life. 2016 started out with my last and final semester of college, followed by a graduation in May, and a potential move in hopes of starting my career.
Going into the year, I knew that these life changes were going to be both nerve racking and exciting. What I didn’t know before approaching the new year, was how much personal and spiritual growth I was going to experience.
It was almost like God knew I wasn’t ready to approach the real world yet, and decided to make this year the perfect time to push me. This year has been nothing but a roller coaster, but I’ve never been more appreciative of the journey.
After reflecting on this past year, I truly believe all of this personal, professional, and spiritual growth happened because of the choices I made this past New Years.
Since I was about 18 years old all of my past New Years Eve nights have resulted in celebrations with my friends. There was always so much hype for that night, that by the time it was over, it was typically a let down for me. The next morning I would only remember parts of the night, and my bank account would remind me of the rest.
Understanding that not only does God have a plan for my life, but that from the womb he uniquely wired me, has uniquely placed me, and has unique set up opportunities for me has been absolutely pivotal for me since college graduation.
As a graduated college student, I am eager to get out there, explore the world, challenge myself in my career, and grow into the best possible version of myself. However, running off to New York in hopes of finding that dream job in the fashion industry may not neccessarily be in God’s plan for my life.
Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.”
Proverbs 19:21 “Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the LORD that will stand.”
“Is it okay to cuss in front of you?”
“I bet you weren’t very wild in high school, you seem so innocent.”
All of the above are comments I’ve heard within the past month. Apparently I’ve been giving off this super innocent vibe recently.
When it comes to fashion, my style is very edgy and bold. My personality is very different. No matter how much I try to appear differently, people still comment on my innocence.
My voice is very soft spoken and I am pretty shy when I first meet people so I understand why these comments have been made. The more I think about it the more I started wondering what it even means to be innocent.